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~Head in the stars~

hi.. i've made another blog..wonder how long this one will last..heez..as in me..blogging?..heex..highly impossible..but..will try this time......wells..let's start with a little bit of me..i haf a serious STM prob..short term memory...yups..also..steffy says i haf a memory of a goldfish..... =( sad...cox goldfish only has a memory of 5 seconds...but! it's not true... i rmb to go sHopPing~!!!...how can i haf stm den??..*puzzled..hmx..i recently had a cold war with my mom..well..this has happened many times..but .. i think it's my fault this time..i totally forgot!..=( oh wells..luckily honey's there to cheer me up.. =) so glad she's around..we talked a lot on sunday(our 1st date!!)..heex..but honey has lotsa lurves..she lurves her darl, her tankers and her so-called "cannon ball"!!!..i kept tellin' her it's NOT a cannon ball but a CANNON...-_-...she jux won't get it....=) i love my cousins too(the close ones)...but...tries not to dependent on them too much.. =( cox..i think i'm losing them...B to a fren, and JJ to her koibito...sighs...really love them a lot..there's another one J..he's cute..i love him too.. but not tat close to him..probably bcox of his mom ba?..B once sent me an sms..it says, "Mus u really go so far?Is lyk...i hv a feeling dat veri soon all those who r close 2 me will disappear..lyk charmaine..marcus..lester..joel..n other who seems lyk slippin away...lyk joanne..gab..n u.."...was so touched after i read it..*sobs...it was sent on 4th Aug 2004 @20:57 ...yes..2004..i kept it..everything changed with a year...now..its seems like i'm the one losing everybody..probably i like quiet..like to be alone sometimes to think abt stuffs..look at my life currently..thinking of other pple's probs..=) ..sometimes they're miserable..but..at least i've thot abt it.. like B...i was tryin to picture wat wud it be like..to lose him...now i'm feelin it everytime i see him with Jo...it's like...he's not longer my cousin..but Jo's..i'm really sad..i've tried to tell him abt Jo..but..i guess..her charm was more powerful..she does haf a charm of attracting pple..i've also been charmed by her..except that..i haf my mom to tell me and pull me out of the trance..but..she's a really gd fren..i'm serious..but..it's juz...sighs...i dunno..i try not to bother abt them now.....i've done wat a close fren, cousin and sis wud haf for B..i hope he appreciates it..thgh he dun seem to get it...he's on his own now..hmx..honey has a prob too..with cf..wonder when will they like..talk it out or something?..they were really close last yr..it's quite sad u know?...i know the feeling..but..somehow..i've lost the trust for some frens..i've no best fren at the moment..althgh i hope i do..someone to share my probs with..thgh i might not tell too...i think it's juz me ba... =\

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